AHH. MY FREAKING COMPUTER IS NOT WORKING!! so ppl.. sorry if the blog gets stale for a while. i'll be back.. once the computer is working. love you guys...!!!

yes.. i've changed my skin.. again. i find my previous skin too happy and joyful i think. and my comp has been going bonkers again. its like crashing halfway. anw, today i'm gonna accompany my sis to jurong point to shop for her hari raya shoe. i've secretly bought my shoe days ago when i stopped by j.p with ain. i bought this really nice beige coloured pumps with a button on each side.. i've always wanted pumps.. watching ms low wear those sharp pointed shoes really got me desperatelly wishing that i had one for myself.. but then when i bought it.. and tried it on with my baju kurung.. i thought, "hm.. maybe pumps are not for me." ahaha. what the hell. i'm not sure what kind of shoe my sis wants.. but we'll be going shopping, and that's all that matters. next tuesday.. i have this gathering with my secondary school friends.. and we'll be like breaking fast together.. i realli want to go.. but there are somethings i have to think abt first.

-whether my dad willl give me permission to go.
-where the hell can i get the money

so guys.. please decide on a very cheap cheap place where we can get cheap cheap food. all tt matters is that we get good food and gather together, right? i have to view the pu2's project work this monday but i am not sure what time i have to report to school and stuffs. zanura!! u better update us on the details!
anw, i really wanna watch a movie or sth. the thing is.. i am short of money.. i am always short of money.. but this time.. my parents don't give me pocket cos school has ended.. so i totally have zilch in my pockets. i was thinking of getting a job.. but i've never worked before and i'm afraid of screwing things up. and furthermore.. i don't think my dad likes the idea of me working. sighs. are there any possible instances where lots of money just suddenly drop from the sky??

i guess it is true that different people have different personalities.. and i am quite mistaken to conclude that all the male species are the same. cos they're not.. each present themselves in their own unique way and their perceptions of things tend to be different. tt is why i am having such a hard life having to deal with all sorts of ludicrousness frm the male species arnd me. take bill for example.. i always wonder whether he actually thinks before he talks and acts.. or does he even know what he's saying. all that crap coming out of his mouth pissed me off most of the time. and worse still, he always does the opposite of what he says. what is he?? A SISSY?? i thought only petty little girls do that to their boyfriends. i feel like throwing him into a time machine and sending him off to another era or sth..(that is provided the time machine can take his weight). that ass should be shot.

next is A. man, he should be the story teller of the year. he can be the next j.k rowling and write his own set of books. he make up stories faster than a blink of an eye. that diminutive boy has been living in his own reverie for too long.. somebody should drag him out of it and bang his head against the wall to shake him up. i can tolerate when a boy gloats about himself but it is unbearable when he swaggers abt something that is out of this world. that guy must be thinking that the people arnd him are stupid enough to acknowledge his folk tales on his love life. if he wants anymore attention and censure frm others, he might as well continue his thing.

lastly, its none other than M. i have nothing against him actually but maybe i pity him because he must have thought that he needs to symphonize into life's masquerade. i guess it is perfectly rational for a person to want to be accepted into a clique but its completely misfortunate to let yourself get altered so easily by the people in that group. what more when you find yourself dying to please this someone, and the being is not even from the opposite gender. clearly, something is not right somewhere. i do not know whether he is certain of what he's living for and what he wants to live for.. i hope he can knock his own head and appreciate himself, and the people around him that actually welcome him for who he is, not what he has to be.



* BIG SIGHS.. *

Her reflections

It's hard to live the present
She's living her past

She breathes on her reminiscence
She lies in her bed of broken dreams
She sleeps in her retrospection
She eats and swallows her mistakes

She has nothing left to live for
It's hard to leave the past

She walks alone down her boulevard of melancholia

hey. my comp is sort of working.. so im gonna blog. hehe. well i got promoted.. got back my papers today.. it was quite okae lah.. cept my literature is like so so bad and my malay is below expectation level. HAHA. but then the best thing is that HE got promoted too!! advanced.. to be specific. but who cares!! who cares!! as long as i noe he won't get stuck in pu1 and dat we're going up together.. its fine with me. pu2 here we come!! weEeeEEE!! its been like years since i last blogged. seriously i've had the greatest days of the year. i won't like elaborate here further cos u guys won't be able to bear with my ramblings. anw, the girls will be getting hidayah a roxy wallet for her bdae!! i cant wait!! she's gonna be like so happy.. she loves roxy and she's been eyeing the roxy wallet for ages. i am like so happy rite now.. my room has been redecorated.. and the house repainted. and then we do not have to worry bout oure results anymore. esp AIN! i mean ain was like so damn worried.. we made it through ain!! you and i!!! and him too!! hahaha.. okae this is getting a bit crazy. i'm gonna like seriously roll and bounce right now.. ehehe. i can't stop talking bout him.. i talked bout him 24 hours today even at home.. dya tink my mom suspects anything. =\ heee. okae i tink i'll end here.. and start writing my blue book.