im too tired to be blogging in proper sentences. bleah.
been busy giving tuition to cute little kids. (: been busy and tired. ive been turning into hafiz and sleeping early the past few days. hahah.

ZARA sales is finally on! i want that gladiator sandals from zara. and a pair of new havainas. red colour. can i not update the list on the left hand corner of this blog? i dont buy the things that i initially wanted but end up buying some other things instead..
like the charles and keith sandals ive been eyeing. the one lalat wore today to school. the one on promotion. I JUST HAD TO GRAB IT.
but i still want that sandals from zara. i hope ain reserves it for me.
and i want the shoes that my mom said made my legs look stunted. i still want it. or rather them.
and a new bag would be just fine.
but first i need to repair that one.

ok nvm. have a great, (not to forget HOT & HUMID) weekend my fellow friends..

i thought my wants and needs are fairly simple. until now.

sometimes, there's a million things running through your mind and you really want to tell that somebody about these thoughts. yet when there is a chance for you to do so, words alone cannot express whatever that is in your mind. or just perhaps, you arent exactly sure of what you're feeling in the first place.

yosephine's boyfriend and his family came over to visit her from indonesia to celebrate her birthday today (happy birthday phine!) it made me question myself whether i am brave enough to make the decisions that will inevitably cost me my freedom of having time and communication at leisure with my other half. somewhere in the day, i knew the answer to my question. the problem is, i dont know whether i should be pleased or be ashamed of it. hafiz would think otherwise of course, he is always someone who is determined enough not to let matters of the heart get in his way of accomplishing things that are going to be beneficial for the future. sometimes i envy him. but then again, whats wrong with reconsidering your decisions for the sake of the people you love most? including them in your decision making will simply tell how much they and their opinions matter to you. decisions do not have to be major, including them in decision making can be as simple as "do you think i should cut my hair, or just the fringe?" (:

just now i wanted to tell him, "im afraid i wont have much time with you once i take up this assignment". i knew what his response will be of course, so i put it in another way hoping to get a more definite answer. "do you mind me taking up the new assignment?"
he said its up to me.
seriously if its really up to me, i would have rejected it. because i would want my wednesdays and saturday mornings open for him. so that if he suddenly has the urge to have a gold rush or sticky chewy chocolate on a mid week, he can just tell me in the morning.. and i would have said "YES!".
but after giving it much thought, i took it up anyway. partly because i knew that he would have asked me to do the same if i ever told him about what was really bothering me. (well he did ask me, and i gave some sweeping statement). on the other hand, if it was him facing this situation, he would not even ask me for my opinion.. haha!.. but if he did, i would probably throw tantrums, sulk all day, pick random fights and ask him to reconsider his decision a few million times. in simple terms, one can say that i wouldnt be very happy.

"love complicates matters," they say. perhaps what really complicate matters are people themselves. perhaps people like me. maybe if people are more like hafiz and less like syahirah, practical decisions would be made without much fuss. (:

You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I missed you.

Lisa Loeb- Stay

a girl can never have enough tops, i discovered as i looked through my wardrobe for tomorrow's outfit. dont get me wrong.. i dont exactly dress up for school. im happy with a comfortable shirt and a pair of jeans. i usually go to school either in my whatever flats or often, my year old havainas. my sister told me a few times that i had a "weird sense of fashion". hahaha.
but i dont want to be caught wearing the same shirt thrice, or even twice, in that same week.. im not saying its wrong. but i would prefer not to.

this is the problem of going to a tertiary school. you can literally waste half an hour thinking of what to wear for the next day. well, at least for me. i would first scan through the whatever choices i have.. (i colour-coded my wardrobe btw. hah.) then i would pick a top according to my mood or the timetable for the next day.. (whether its gonna be a long day, or just a 3 hour session).. and then after picking, i would start to contemplate. then i would start wishing that i had more choices.. i would then shift my attention to the next wardrobe available (my sis's), and when i am in desperate need for choices, i'll go to the wardrobe in the master room (my mum's). 99.9% of the time, i'll return to my wardrobe.

besides tops, a girl can also never have enough bags, earrings (for me at least), make-up products, lingerie and shoes. but i think i had enough of shoes. when i was working, i think i bought an average of 2 shoes per month... all of which are heels. my fetish for peep toe heels and pointed pumps is like my fetish for chocolate fudge cake. now i rarely wear them because i dont exactly like wearing heels to school. as mentioned, im better off in slippers or birkinstocks. i seriously dont want to look and feel corporate when im in school, and i would rather go bare-footed when im sitting for a test.

so why this issue about slippers being too sloppy? an article in "lifestyle" today talks about the slipper trend in sg and there were obviously two sides to it, some say slippers are perfect for hot weather and the other side were against slippers in restaurants, schools and some other places. seriously whats wrong with wearing slippers to school? i am fully aware that some polytechnics do not encourage students to wear slippers.. but unless you're giving a formal presentation or going to play sports or going into a science lab to do experiments, i dont see why one cant wear slippers to campus.

the most interesting part of the article was a comment by a reader, who mentioned that there are double standards to this slipper issue. girls who wear slippers are considered as casual but men who walks around in slippers are deemed as sloppy. secretly i agree with her.

all this talk about slippers is tempting me to get a new pair as soon as i get the moolahs. ive been eyeing some pairs for quite some time now. mhahaha..

Labels: shopaholic, slippers

NOW: 2 years and 9 months later, taken by muz with his phone, during a ice-cream supper at swensens. i had no idea what i was doing or thinking at that time but hafiz was clearly rubbing his tummy. lol.

im addicted to two things now:- facebook and chocolate waffles.
ive never thought that i'll be addicted to facebook. the past few months, i refuse to make a facebook account, but thaza introduced me to wordplay, and im addicted since. facebook is so much more fun than friendster..
the chocolate waffles part, dont ask me. but i think the addiction is wearing out. its something like the bubble tea phase.. sometimes i'll go crazy over bubble tea and sometimes not.

efts research report is officially over. frankly speaking, i didnt spend much time on it. i dont think its worth the 20%. and just now, when the lecturer showed us the sample exam paper... the whole class was taken aback. it was madness. nobody can finish that freaking paper in 2 hours. that aside, econs project is yet to be done. i think there's so much to be done in a span of 2 months. its quite crazy. 2 projects and tons of tests. but thank God, math is managable.. i think. its so much better than differentiation and integration FOR SURE.

actually the reason im blogging is because im a bit pissed off.
im not sure for what or why.. but i think im getting sick of some things. like being patient for example. and always being the one thinking and thinking. maybe its the effect of so many things piling up and so many things happening at the same time. im not sure if some people really know what i feel about certain things.. im sure i made my stand clear on some things.. but if it doesnt ring a bell, then im gonna bloody shut up. maybe its because i dont see things the way other people do.. maybe i feel that some things are unnecessary now. maybe i need something more than some people think i do. maybe im just feeling too much.

i think some people just dont get it, or they dont want to get it, just like how they think people dont get them... but i think in the first place, they dont want people to.
i am thinking too much. im sick of this.

i've finished the bloody report. YES done. except for bibliography part, but that can be done over the weekend, when im editing and finalising everything.

now, i can have my 7th of the month with a peaceful mind.


Thank you God.

i dont even know why im blogging now. my back is aching and i intend to finish mike gayle's his n hers.. (mike gayle is awesome next to nora roberts!) i think the main reason why im doing this right now is because i need to pen this down somewhere.

i pass my statistic math. i freaking passed. and to me its a good pass. its above average.

i think what a friend said to me the other time is true to a certain extent. he thinks that bloggers are a bunch of self-centred people because all they do in their blogs is talk about what they did that day and complain abt what they dont like and rant and rant. "like people actually give a damn", or sth like that. well he obviously doesnt have a blog.. and he obviously doesnt know anything about blogs nowadays. i bet he hasnt even heard of citizen journalism (the topic of my report!) or blogs like mrbrown or yawningbread. and i bet he isnt aware that voyeurism exists! people generally want to know what other people went through that day and this especially applies to the ones close to them... for me, blogs represent the writer. how he expresses himself through his blog can tell you alot about what kind of person he can turn out in real life. thats what i think.. you wouldnt want to blog about something that you dont genuinely feel for, do you.. why even bother?

but still, i feel like one of those idiots what he is referring to now.. but hell, im happy for myself. im happy to tell hafiz that i can do statistics. and i can tell him what about math that i actually hate.. (algebra, differentiation and integration all that crap) and plus to top it all, i topped my class in the past econs test. i think i deserve a reward.. like a cup of bubble tea or sth.. ive also put in like a total of 5 hours on the darn report today. its like project work all over, except this is quite rushed! but its better that you would have to do it on your own so you dont need to work with a thousand people just for one report.

ok i know this is random, but i just got to know that popeyes not only have outlets in terminal 2 and the sg flyer (newly opened), it has one in terminal 3 too!! so there's like 3 outlets here in singapore! i went to terminal 3 the other time but there was no sight of popeyes.. anyway, i absolutely adore their chickens and buns! but the boy still thinks kfc is tops no matter what. he's like the type of person who will stick to the one thing he likes and will refuse to try anything else.. well ok not exactly refuse.. but rather not. and will not.

another random thing here, but i love sunsets.. do you know that you can tell what type of person they are according to their preference for sunsets or sunrises.. but i forgot whats their significance. HAH. do you love sunsets or sunrise more hafiz?