hey i did sth pretty interesting today.. i signed up with hi5!! that thing is damn efficient i tell ya. its like way better than friendster, which always screws up when you need it the most. and so i recommend it to you guys out there. you should, should, should get down to it immediately. and dun forget to add me while you're on it. HAHA. i think the reason why i am so excited is cos i am so really bored and i can't find a single thing to perk me up.


actually, it would be nice if i can talk to hairwis or maybe muru even. he was on msn just now but then my stupid sis went into her msn while i was fetching my mom.. and now he's not there. ok so now i feel so screwed cos i'm like so dying to talk to him but nvr really gotten the guts. i am so gutless. LOLx.. anw, dearest aung told me that he went out with someone during hari raya. like GREAT.. that is totally great. haha. anw, i got sth planned with yanee and eva.. next tues yea! looking forward to a nice caramel frap or some chocolate. yummy..!


actually i wanted to go out today with jal or sth.. initially my plan was to donate blood. but i dunno where to go.. and i dun really have all the charitable mood to donate a bag of blood so i decided to skip it. and jal.. her idea was to go sentosa. if i'm in a better mood, i think i would go with the idea. but i was not.. and i don't want to waste my time and money going to sentosa feeling like crap. maybe when its a good time, then i consider going there. currently i feel like putting ferd in a bag and throw that bag into the sea.. he told me he was late the other day because he went to the gym.. but nooooo... he didn't. he stood his friends up. i shall shoot his ass the next time i see him. such an ass. i tink what is most important for a guy is not to be even later than the girl ure supposed to meet.. that is like so common sense!!


i think i'll sms hairwis later when he ends work. yesterday he was being such a great sms-er.. but he was slow.. so i slept while waiting for his sms. HAHA. so what do you suggest i do until 11 pm? my sis was saying tt she wants to use msn so i can't go into msn. i can't call hairwis cos he's working. i can't watch tv cos it'll be too boring. geez. i'm gonna be officially stoned till 11.


Yellowcard's Only One is currently stuck in my head right now..

Yellowcard - Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

hey, back back back! firstly, hafta thank eva for the cute underwear!!! thanks to my parents for the lovely mp3 player! thanks everyone for your well wishes! thanks shahid and basitd for the pink flip flops and purse! thank you, thank you!!



just got home from changi airport. no i didnt fly to anywhere or anything of tt kind. actually my sister and me went to sim lim square to buy a hardisk and then pass it to my father. we bought a packet of lays chips with cheddar cheese...(you gotta try this, its finger lickingly fabulous.) and so here i am blogging and chatting at the same time. i did went out with ferd yesterday to watch our sisters play.. the queensland band was really good.. although i can't see any good looking chap from where i was seating, i truly enjoy the music. coincidentally, met shahira.. who was seating a row behind me. she got free tickets dammit.. i had to fork out 12 bucks for it. well it was actually my mom's money, but still.. tsk. and tt idiot was 25 minutes late. and he was smsing aka flirting during the concert. i was so bloody pissed off i felt like smacking his head. i mean for god's sakes.. tsk. anw, after that, they were thinking of eating but my sis and me head home. cos it was already 11 and my parents will scream their head off if i bring my sister galivanting around the island. anw, ferd did looked good. i mean he always looks damn good.. but yesterday, i finally get to see his pink braces. haha.


anw, i was talking to hairwis on the phone just now when i was waiting for my father.. and i got to know that he is currently working at 7-eleven. ahaha. ok.. good for him.. that probably means he can like treat me or sth. i am so craving for someone to treat me to the movies, or maybe swensens.. or seoul garden. haha...


these days.. i wish i can like go out oftenly and spend less time at home.. there are so many things going on here and i just feel so plain miserable and lonely and pissed and angry and sad.. okae im kindda exaggerating. but i feel so bored around these four walls... yes.. i have holiday assignments.. but what the hell. ok i think i shall end here...

first and foremost,



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUFIK!!!


and of course to the rest of the december babies, fadhli!! helmi, dhivya, my two sisters, syazwani and syakila, noraini!!, zhen yang!! happy birthday to us yeah!!


actually, i've just watched taufik on tv performing for "ikhlas" on suria. omg, he is sooo hot, isnt he? even my mom was smiling sheepishly like a 15-yr-old teenager having a crush. bless the girls who came up on stage to hug him.. lucky you!

the weather's good, isnt it? thunder, lightning, night and heavy rain.. pretty fine combination. anyway, had another dance practise just now.. wasnt as great as the last one, tiring as well. but luckily, there was no sc meeting after that, so went to jurong point to eat lunch and then head home. syakila kept ringing me to get home asap. anw, waited for my father to left for work and then did some blog editing,(as you can clearly see.) i decide not to have a tagboard cos i find it not necessary at this pt of time. haha.. i love this new layout. firstly, i drift from my usual pink thing.. secondly its ain's fave colour and thirdly, it's so simple.


i hope the "outing" with ferd is confirmed. i only agree to go out with him is bcos our sisters are performing together in some band next tuesday in victoria concert hall. wanted ain to come along at first, but considering that she doesnt have any music background and that the tix cost 12 bux.. and i bet she is not even interested in classical music. so i decided, maybe not this time eh ain.. i wanna catch ocean's 12!! wanna get a lot of things. *sigh*


have you ever heard shania twain's, you're still the one? its quite an old song but it soothes me everytime i hear it. and muru likes shania cos he thinks she's hot. hehe..
i end here for now. see ya guys..

hey, i went through one whole day of dance practice and sc meeting!! cool, cool. i'm damn tired right now yeah, and i went home at 8 just now to find the house so damn messy.. and we had guests. so i tidy up my hse a bit before washing up. the dance practice was okae.. although even my basic steps are so out of place. introduced ain and myself to the dance tutor.. and he called me khatijah before he can get it right. oh well. i am scared of him actually. anyhoos...


the sc meeting was so tiring and we painted another two banners today. we had lunch today. HARHAR. so ain and i ate a packet of nasi lemak each.. and then after the meeting, we as in, poksy, xx, lynette, jun jie, farid, joel, ain and me went to macdonalds and ate a meal. see how hungry we are. its like lunch and dinner that sort of thing you know. and so i reached home at 8... and my sister ringed me up and accused me of galivanting. hell, i went to eat that's all!!



i came across one of my friend's blog just now, and apparently this friend of mine is totally into his girlfriend cos he stated in his blog the date of their first kiss and when they started going out together. and one of his dreams is to have HER kids and marry her as soon as possible. he REALLY is in love i guess. i mean, at 16 and thinking of having kids and getting married as soon as possible?? kind of freaky. but its not surprising.. when ure head over heels, you got all sorts of bullshit coming out of ure mouth,(which you will tend to regret greatly later in life.) kind of funny alright, all this while, every one tells you.. "education should be first priority.." and you're not only sidetracking to ure relationship, you're actually planning to get married AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. geez. scary. but yeah.. what to do. wish him the best of luck.



this relationship thingy is seriously freaking me out. i got friends totally above the clouds (like the one stated above)..and some who are totally under the weather all the while because of the relationship they are having. seriously i dunno whether they are happy or better off without having someone to command that they should call the other half like twice per hour or give a curfew like you have to be back by 7 or whatever. *sighs* i guess it all boils down to the trust the other party have on their respective partners, and most importantly, their own insecurities as well. when u get insecure you tend to control ure bf/gf. but i guess some ppl are just born posessive. or they like to lead and be in control of the relationship... or whatever i dunno..


and the ones lingering over the clouds, how i wish they could snap back into reality...

HAHA!


wow. i had a fun time blogging aka crapping today. should do this more often..

the weather today is certainly gloomy. its been raining since the beginning of time and i didnt have the mood to do anything except to eat, eat and sleep. im feeling so extremely fat right now.. i stuffed a whole plate of lamb chop PLUS my sis's chicken chop leftovers. haaah. so bloody full. ok lets talk abt my trip to escape theme park.. basically i feel like a weakling cos i started puking only after 4 rides. i seriously shouldnt have taken the pepsi ride.. i was ALMOST crying, and zanura's small cuzzie, miza, was already crying. i mean, the ride was really pukable.. i felt my stomach churning and my brains felt like bursting out of my skull. ok im exaggerating a bit.. but yeah, that ride made me puke. i wasted 16 bucks. i wanna go there again lah.. want to try all the rides. anw, i puked out the only cookie that i ate that morning. *sighs* and tmr i'll have the first tarian practise and then off to sc meeting. the thing is.. i have no confidence when i have to dance in front of the seniors and all my other friends. what more when i have difficulties following the complicated steps. i feel like a stiff spaghetti.. and its stressing me out really. and i heard that the dance tutor is damn strict and sarcastic. oh well, i don't think i want to face this kind of ppl when i am stressing myself out. frankly speaking i love dancing, but when i cant get the steps, then i get irritated. oh well. a few minutes ago, i searched for taufik's me and mrs jones in kazaa, and i got so many of his songs, so i decided to download them all.. and now i have 12!!! and im currently repeating me and mrs jones over and over again. HAHA. ok. i guess i'll stop here for now.

ooh. my comp is working, can you believe it! haha. well.. im going to the class chalet tmr!! woots!! im just soo sooo happy. actually im going there to catch a glimpse of him(if he's coming lah that is). what has been happening these past few weeks? hmph.. been going for sc meetings, rotting at home most of the time.. going jalan hari raya with my friends, and today got the schedule for tarian. im not tt excited abt going to pre u 2 cos its gonna be hectic!! hectic!! there's syf tarian, alevels malay exam, project work which is damn tedious. hah. god help me.

anw, forget all this....

TAUFIK WON!!!!!!TAUFIK WON!!!!!!!!!
hey even my dearest mommy loves him. he got such a nice voice. when's the second telecast?? i wanna hear him sing "me and mrs jones" again!!! omg, the way he caress the mike stand. i wish i could be that bloody mike stand!!!! muahahaha!! i was so turned on!!!! i felt like a freaking pervert watching him sing. but all in all, i still think he deserves to get the title, tho sylvester may have all the fans in the world, and he may have like all the record deals thats possible, but still.. taufik batisah is the one who has better vocals no doubt!!! taufik, you're the man!!!! LOLx. and his bdae is 10 december!!!!!!!!!!! tt's like the day before MY BIRTHDAY. aiyo.. why my mother nvr gave birth to me a day earlier, then taufik and i can share the same birth date. HAHA.