dearest bestie,

i admit im spending time with him.. ok maybe too much time. i do realise that you may feel very uncomfortable if you're with the four of us. that's why i wanted you to bring your him along. its okae if your him is a bit alien, i guess he just doesnt like to mix with the rest of us.. he'd rather sit alone with you..

the thing is -

i think you're going through what i went through when u first went out with him a few months ago. (= i didnt like how i was feeling and im sure you dont too. please get this right, im not trying to get back at you or anything. i dont like to spend too little time with my friends.. trust me. bcos i accuse other ppl of doing that. haha... now the whole world is accusing me of spending too much time with him. im trying not to.. and it'll be okae. you know me bestie, i cannot stick with one person all the time.. i have to have my own space, my own time (and i so hope he realises that).. i hope you understand.. i have to make time for everything.. family, friends, him, council and studies.. and you will come to realise that im not giving any time nowadays for my studies. i have bad time management lah.. you know that.

but that doesnt mean that i had pushed you at the back of my mind. maybe you've noticed that i've not talked about anything else except for him when im with you.. but one thing you didnt know is that, i did the same when im with him.. i tell him about you. so i hope you understand. i hope we can talk abt this and you will stop dunno-ing me. (=