dearest bestie,

i admit im spending time with him.. ok maybe too much time. i do realise that you may feel very uncomfortable if you're with the four of us. that's why i wanted you to bring your him along. its okae if your him is a bit alien, i guess he just doesnt like to mix with the rest of us.. he'd rather sit alone with you..

the thing is -

i think you're going through what i went through when u first went out with him a few months ago. (= i didnt like how i was feeling and im sure you dont too. please get this right, im not trying to get back at you or anything. i dont like to spend too little time with my friends.. trust me. bcos i accuse other ppl of doing that. haha... now the whole world is accusing me of spending too much time with him. im trying not to.. and it'll be okae. you know me bestie, i cannot stick with one person all the time.. i have to have my own space, my own time (and i so hope he realises that).. i hope you understand.. i have to make time for everything.. family, friends, him, council and studies.. and you will come to realise that im not giving any time nowadays for my studies. i have bad time management lah.. you know that.

but that doesnt mean that i had pushed you at the back of my mind. maybe you've noticed that i've not talked about anything else except for him when im with you.. but one thing you didnt know is that, i did the same when im with him.. i tell him about you. so i hope you understand. i hope we can talk abt this and you will stop dunno-ing me. (=

heloo!!

so many things happened these past few days i just don't bother to blog. hahaaaha.. okae well, firstly, time flies.. and there's only 3 more weeks to promos. im still not in my mugging mode.. pretty obvious.. because i havent been studying at all. yeah really... sighs. you know sometimes you have to sacrifice somethings to be able to achieve some other things.. if you know what i mean. but im going to go do full force studying... i promise....

but later.

thought of putting pictures but got very lazy.. so, some other time.

ok. just where did he get my number from? (=

helu!!

my father paid for this limewire thing which is supposedly legal. finally i can like download sth into my mp3.. hehe. he paid like 35 US dollars.. which sums up to i dunno how much in sing dollars. wani is going to study with her friend later. mom and dad are working, syakila went to school but i tink she'll be back soon.. and grandma.. she went to shop for some groceries with syarina. well u guessed right, basically i am going to go into my usual bored mode soon. and the sun... my goodness.. i can feel the prickling heat just sitting in my bedroom like 2m away from the window.

actually i have plans later. i am going out with hairwis shopping for a birthday gift for his best friend. we'll be meeting later at 4.30... which is rather (not just rather, but freaking) late for me. but i guess i have to put up with his late meeting time. *rolls eyes* he made me consider and then reconsider. actually i'll be glad to not go because it is just too late.. but then i suddenly had this image in my mind, i'll be stoning in front of the computer till god knows when. worst come to worst, i'll tv all day long and then mom will come home and insist that i sweep, mop or vacuum the floor. so, i am going out. i have to. and then maybe when i return, i can eerm... iron my uniform for tmr, revise a little bit of econs.. tt kind of thing.

i feel so guilty.
promos is only like what? less than a month away??

i really should be switching to my mugging mode. really really should.

one great big success.

credits to:
riyah - you're the woman of the celebration girrl!!
hazwan - banners, and thanks for the jp-cake trip!!
zash & shan - the ever hardworking good friends of mine.
mich & kum - treasurer & awards
shahani - deco babe, and the deco was breathe-takingly beautiful.

to everyone - we did a great job.