i so dig this new skin la. actually i had to choose between this another awesome skin, but nyeh. this cool aint it? heh. finally i downloaded the upbeat version of hard-fi's hard to beat and jason mraz's wordplay..wheee!.. and i finished my srp too.. not much for a "stay-home-all-day-monday", i guess i'll finish up my lit p1 tutorials today too. and not to mention the human geog essay assignment. TYPED. urgh. and the lit p1 essay too, and the econs notes, and the lit p8 annotations, and the econs mcq test. howells.

my parents are still mad, upset, angry and disappointed at me i guess. what to do. if i could turn back time, i will gladly do it.. and me, being the "opportunist" like dad said, i will definitely take advantage of the privilege i have. and of course im upset with myself too.. like which arse wouldnt right? after hours and hours of crying and reflecting, i guess i have to move on with life, and try to repent. the harsh words that my dad said really hurt me.. and though i know that he has the right to scold me, i feel that some words should not be spoken. somethings he said were true i cant deny that.. and im grateful that he didnt lay a finger on me cos if he did, i would be hurting not only emotionally but physically as well.

i dont know if its my luck or is it retribution for my wrong-doings, i seem to be having all sorts of problems with my parents. just a week ago, it was the hp bill and when things seemed to be picking up, this shit had to happen. i guess i just had to eff things up. so i'm gonna be good from now on. maybe i'll just blog all my frustrations.. how bout tt? thanks to fariz, riyah, zash, manan, keong and my sis for being there when i really needed someone to talk to. your pats on my back and your kind words really meant a lot and im grateful for all of that. and hafiz, though sometimes i cannot seem to understand the purpose of your actions.. i still need you sayang, im sure you know that.

hafiz went for a syarahan. good for him.. i hope he's doing great. he complained earlier that he was so tired from work.. aww. HAHA. wanted to write him a letter yesterday but got too tired. was it zash? who was surprised to hear that we are writing letters to each other. but i guess it is justifiable for us to be writing letters considering the fact that im now a jail bird; no handphone, no more cordless phone which means if i want to use the phone, i have to do it discreetly, and that i have to regain my parents' trust. hard life. SIGHS.

wani went to watch memoirs of a geisha with her bf. not tt im green cos i cant go out. i so want to watch the movie la. or at least buy me the book somebody.. frankly speaking, im better off reading the book, i dont think i want to watch a movie now. if everything was okae, i would have watched it with my council on friday.. sighs. but no point asking why. and to add to my misfortunes, im now down with a flu.. been sneezing my nose off and coughing since the day i got scolded.

i guess this is enough for one day.