dearest ain,

i guess you never change one quality in you. you're sensitive. you know that dont you? heheee.. you're like one little baby. you and hafiz are similar! i seriously have to pamper to you both. LOLx.

i am sorry over what happened in gp class the other time. i guess you were right.. its like the roommate thing, they thought you were with us, we thought you were with them. and i seriously didnt want you to go to the other group because that would be throwing you away, right? so i guess i went to the other group so that you can at least go to their group. im sorry we couldnt be in the same group, it always doesnt work out for us that way to think of it. sometimes circumstances just dont allow us to spend time with each other.

about the roommate thing, i seriously didnt know what happened. i didnt actually voiced out who i wanted to share the room with because i thought, it doesnt make a difference cos you know, we are in the same villa after all. and i heard from the start that you wanted to be with her so i thought we'll go our separate ways. you said i didnt fight to be with you. i guess now is the time for me to say something, if you want to be with me ain, then you have to voice it out. so i know what you want, so they know what you want. ok? anyhoos, if you insist, i can always sleep with you. i'll be more than happy to share a room with you alone. as long as i have a bed. (and some chips, and air-con) HAHAHAHA..

you know sometimes i get very stressed up just thinking of you and hafiz. hafiz will always tell me to spend more time with you. and we always end up arguing because of that.. because me, i dont like him to tell me what to do, especially when its the obvious. and secondly, i know that he is reluctant to say that.. because he wants to spend as much time with me possible. i seriously dont want to hurt your feelings.. but sometimes my ignorant and insensitive attitude just pisses you guys off, i know that. IM SORRY OKAE. i sincerely apologise. sometimes i just cannot cater to your needs.. sometimes i feel that i cannot live up to your expectations. and i guess because of that, we drifted. yea, and im talking to you both. but trust me, i will try my best for the both of you.

about my problems, i guess they just keep piling on top of one another.. to think that all this is happening during our last year, our examinations year. its totally madness.. sometimes i just feel like a total shit... just thinking of it. sometimes i just feel so so helpless and paranoid.


i love you both sayangss. heh.