i cant believe what i just did. how much time i've just WASTED. i spent like a total of 3 hours plus searching for a skin and then i thought... ohkae, maybe i don't want a new skin after all. eeergh!! its sunday now, and school's beginning on tuesday. the so-called "long weekend". yeahhh RIGHT. i've finished my economics case study BUT i'm left with literature p1 context question, literature p2 context question, lit p8 essay AND plus plus plus the essay outlines for literature p1 and p2. all this- revision not included, mind you. no no im not complaining. i'm so loving my workload.

went to sheng siong for grocery-shopping with everyone this afternoon. i managed to stock up our chocolate, instant noodles and bread supply.. (in case of emergency for example late night mugging, CSI marathons, etc.) it was raining cats and dogs when we finished shopping so we took the cab home. and oh- had mcdonalds before shopping.. i seriously don't know how wani can manage to gobble up the chicken fantastic... most people i know totally hate it, but she loves it. HAHA. anyways... i hope the week to come will be a fruitful one. no more wasting time, no more procrastinating. sigghs...

wonder what he's doing right now. missed our galivanting sessions.. haha. hafiz, we havent been to pizza hut for a long time. let's go bowling with fariz and dayah someday okae? and i want to have a saturdate too!! and i need to shop for a new pencil case plus some pens and all.

*sobs*.. okae, better get to lit p1 and then off to CSI later.

i hurt him yet again today.
and i hope he wont deny it this time, cos i can see it in his eyes.
i dont like to feel insecure. you can say that i try to run from my problems too, from the very harsh facts of life.
and THEY;
they say a lot of things,
as if they are not capable of doing such things themselves.
maybe i just dont think that he should live up to THEIR expectations.
its so hard to make everyone happy.
to live up to their every expectation,
you'll end up not living your own life.

the veronicas - 4ever


today went well for me. met hafiz at j.e interchange, that boy looked as if he's going to cry any moment soon. HAHA. had the usual lessons.. had the usual tuesday break, which i totally love cos the canteen is practically empty when we get there.. cos everyone has either the 9 or 945 am break. heee. i have a lot of homework to be done, result slip to be signed.. yeah.. the common test results were long out. sorry if you find that everything is almost outdated in this blog... so in case there are any curious people almost dying to know my results, i'll flash them here for you..

• English Literature AO
• Economics AO
• Geography D
• General Paper B4

HAH. not that im shamelessly parading my grades, frankly i feel really horrible and ashamed. but really this is what you get for not studying. MAHAHAHAH... i wouldnt be surprised to get like triple Fs. fantastic fantastic fantastic!! but that's really... cannot make it.

anyhoos, i was one of those chosen for the sumatra trip! so yes, i'll probably be going riyah!! (= hehehee.. sounds very nice but i guess its up to my parents whether they are willing to fork out a hundred bucks to pay for the trip.. plus they insisted on paying the a-level fees ($400) in cold hard cash. and due to "insufficient" funds in my edusave, i have to pay $28 for the TIMES magazine subscription. i swear i have like $300++ inside there. but wth.

i realised something today. my hair is growing longer.. hooraah!!hehs.
i filled in the economics taxation table and filed up my human geog file. plus.. i vacuumed the whole house this morning. =)

actually i blogged today cos im feeling soo uber in love with hafiz and i need him to know this. *blushes*
howells.. you know there are certain days where you really have to tell that someone how much you really appreciate his presence in your life... and how they fill in the empty spaces in your heart.

sometimes i wonder how he managed to put up with me all these while..
picking me up at my lowest point..
at our lowest point..
tolerating my attitude problems and my catty bratty moments..
urging me not to give up in our relationship when i really feel like pushing it all aside.
when i reflect how much we went through together throughout these 7 months or so,
we didnt exactly went ice-skating together.. HAHA..
but we gazed at the stars in the sky..
we shared our first million kisses together..
we fought too... and it can be almost 3 to 5 minutes everyday.. heh.
i realised i loved every moment spent together with him..
laughing at his lame lame jokes..
and to watch him do things, or hear him say things.
he's super clumsy sometimes.. i still remember when he banged into the big metal case.. Hahah..
the way he pronounces his r's and my name especially!!
it still makes me smile and laugh...
even after 7 whole months..
the way he cuddles me..
and give me kisses.. one on the left cheek, one on the right.. and then the forehead and finally my lips.
i wonder if he knows it..
if he knows that his love and care is my strength
that i still feel jealous everytime.. hahahah..
i wonder why he feels that im pushing him aside..
maybe its not the same when we were first together.. but things arent the same now.
i guess he has become a part of me.
my better half, like he said once.

<3

and as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be, friends forever..

we looked forward to the night.

the girls of the class + ms low = beautiful

howells. should have smiled WIDELY..

because a certainly picture tells a thousand words.

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THE 2ND MI SC/FL

we worked so hard to keep it going..

from the shortest to the tallest! HAHA.

play their way

boys will be boys.

show you what the dreams are made of..


and so we'll leave the world behind us now.

i don't want no scrubs.


let me sum up the past few days, with a big AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
i need a break so so badly.

just worried somehow.


i found a new love. jamie cullum! his songs just makes me smile and sway.. (: i guess its the same for jason mraz, josh groban, john mayer and michael buble.. who can ever resist michael buble. his voice is just like hot, melting butter.. *sighs* (: anyway, managed to put a song in the blog, thanks to dearest jalilah! thanks a lot!


meet hafiz yesterday to watch ice age 2 at plaza singapura. we bumped into his sister aishah in front of the mall, LITERALLY. cos i fell down when she crashed into us. yeah, infront of everyone.. not that ive never been embarassed in public before, but on top of that, my bum was hurting. HAHAH. ohwells, its still a pleasant surprise. we had to sit in the first row of the theater cos tickets were running out and it we couldnt afford to watch the 9.10 pm one. i wouldnt want to do a movie review here.. hahaa.. but i guess its still pretty funny, and it was nice to see hafiz laugh. heh.. after the movie, had dinner at kfc. both of us were so freaking hungry and we managed to finish our food in 20 minutes, (which is an achievement for me, cos im a bloody slow eater.) i had set b of the superstar meal and he had the banditto meal. i love chicken man, I WILL NEVER GET SICK OF IT!! hmph.


today, had to vacuum the whole house. cleaned up my room a bit and then basically just do nothing. took a short nap in the afternoon and then played sims busting out on the playstation, after that got bored. i really feel like a zombie. felt like doing nothing and that was what i just did. NOTHING. mom and dad are both working and wont be coming home till night, wani went to the library with muz. hafiz, he's busy. and the weather's been indecisive.. cos there were signs of rain, but then there was no rain. sheesh. but i guess its ok to stay home today, cos my dad went out to work early.. and i have more.. freedom, i guess. hahaa..


back to school tomorrow. and i think we'll be getting our horrifying results. what ms low said on friday's home tutor period (after i came back from crapping) really scared me. she said something like.. "dont cheat yourself by saying that if you had studied, you will achieve better results. but what if it doesnt make a difference? you have to start asking yourself why you're getting bad results. we have to discuss with your parents." okay, she didnt exactly say it to me, she said it generally to the whole class. but i got so darn guilty. the thing is, i didnt study very hard. sheesh.. i seriously dont want my parents to be called in, my FATHER will start on one of his neverending-shitified-attitude-problem nags. urgh. i dont want my parents to be called in. oh GOD.
havent iron my uniform and havent pack my bag. havent been doing my organizing too. i am such a lazy COW.


on the way
we all changed,
but i guess we learnt more things.
i guess we grew up.