sometimes i wish i am anorexic, or have an eating disorder, or even have a live tapeworm inside me.. anything to stop myself from nibbling too much or even better, just makes me lose kilos although i am eating too much. perhaps i should just burn the koko krunch and the whatever stuffs we have in the tidbit corner. i wish i have all the energy to run 3 km like zash does.. and she does it almost everyday. ohwells. random thoughts aside..

guess what..



it's only like FOUR more days before school reopens. hmm..



freaking 4 DAYS.. i can count the days with one hand!!
oh God.. there's this mixed emotions lurking inside me.
sadness, madness.. a whole lot of desperation.
what have i done this june holidays??

1. Sleep a lot - CHECK
2. Watch MTV, Asian Food Channel and Soundtrack Channel the whole day, taking breaks only to eat or go to the loo - CHECK
3. Eat everything i can possibly find in the kitchen- CHECK
4. Laze around - CHECK
5. Revision - NO
6. Study - NO
7. Homework - NO

ok maybe i am exaggerating. after all, i did managed to do fung's essay. but then again, that was only because he wants it during the holiday lesson itself.. and to think of it, i guess that doesn't exactly count because i woke up wee early.. like 5 hours before his 10 am lesson.. to finish the essay. so yeah.

i am officially doomed.

to top it all, all those suicidal feelings.. i am down with a flu. when i found out that scary movie 4 opens today.. i was overjoyed.. i asked hafiz if we could watch it together, if possible.. tonight.. but he cant. so yea.. the worst part was.. our conversation was filled with.. (direct translation from malay to english)

hafiz: why do you like to procrastinate? every single thing you procrastinate.. you didnt study, iron your uniform also you want to procrastinate"
sya: eh why are you getting mad just because of that?
hafiz: i'm not angry, i'm trying to be the good one here, asking you to study..
sya: blablablablabla..

in another conversation..

hafiz: do you want to take your alevels this year?
sya: why you asking me that?
hafiz: just answer me.
sya: yes la.
hafiz: then why...(this part onwards kind of not clear because i chose to NOT hear)

sighs. i guess that's enough reflection. i'm just gonna go kick myself now.

RIPPED FROM FRIENDSTER.
HOW GIRLISH ARE YOU?

[ ]my fingernails/toenails are almost always
painted
[x]during the summer pretty much the only shoes i
wear are flip flops
[x]my favorite toy as a child were barbies
[x]my favorite color is purple
[ ]i did Gymnastics
[x]i love skirts
[ ]hollister is my favorite place to shop
[ ]tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x]i love chocolate
[x]i've never had a real job.
TOTAL: 6

[ ]my hair is straightened
[x]i have at least 8 friendster pictures
[x]i usually go shopping once a week
[x]i love to hang out with friends
[ ]i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[ ]i've gone to a tanning salon
[x]ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ ]i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[x]i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ]i change my icon weekly
TOTAL: 5

[ ]i wear a shower cap
[ ]I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[x]my cell phone might as well become a part of
me
[ ]i wear mascara everyday
[ ]i've been or am on a diet
[ ]bathing suits are adorable
[ ]i dont know the difference between a sheep and
a goat.
[x]big sunglasses are hott
[ ]i have gotten my nails done
[x]i own over 10 purses
TOTAL: 3

[x]MTV is one of my favorite channels
[ ]all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[x]i love to have other girls do my hair
[x]i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x]i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[x]carnivals are so fun!!
[ ]summer is THE best season
[ ]my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ]im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[ ](unless de guy is fat n ugly)pianists are so hot.
TOTAL: 5

[ ]u write me a poem and tell me im beautiful
and im all yours
[x]i am self-conscious.
[x]i cry often
[ ]my car smells like vanilla
[x]my dishes get washed more then once a week
[ ]i dont do sports
[x]i HATE to run
[ ]i squeal when im surprised or angry
[ ]i eat dried fruit as a snack
[x]i love romance novels
TOTAL: 5

[ ]Drew Barrymore is so cute
[x]i dance a lot
[x]i usually spend over an hour to get ready to
leave my house
[ ]i only have like 5 billion hair products
[x]i love to get dressed up.
[x]every part of my outfit needs to match
[x]i talk on the phone at least once a day to my
friends
[x]i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[ ]price on clothes hardly matters
[ ]i apply lip gloss 50 times a day
TOTAL: 6

[ ]i wish i were a model
[ ]i wish i could meet Paris Hilton to slap her
[ ]i have been something that was slutty on
halloween
[ ]i own Uggs
[ ]Hip Hop is the best music
[ ]i pop my collar
[ ]i like to be the center of attention
[ ]guys with Mohawks are crazy
[x]horses are beautiful
[x]i'd rather not pay attention in school
TOTAL: 2

[x]cats are adorable
[ ]i write my own music/song/lyric
[x]i would love to visit Hawaii
[ ]Valentine's day is so cute!
[x]white is better then black
[x]i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[ ]my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[ ] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[x]i love to read gossip magazines
[x]i love to gossip
TOTAL: 6

[ ]I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[ ]i love Celine dion
[ ]My bubble baths are 2 hr long
[ ]my wedding only needs a groom because it's
already planned
[ ]my friends and i are in a strict group. we
mostly only hang out with each other only.
[ ]i like kids
[ ]diet drinks are the best
[ ]im all about being vegetarian
[ ]i refuse to eat at McDonald's
[ ]i check my friendster everyday.
TOTAL: 1

[ ]i LOVE life!
[ ] have a lot of jewellery!
[ ]claires has cheap jewellery
[ ]my screen names have x's in them -
[x]either one of my friendster profile has/had
<3>

and so i FINALLY got him to get his own caramel frappe.
if im not wrong.. he likes it.

*smiles*