valentine's day wasnt exactly all rosy for me. really.
i didnt know couples would even have the thought of having a romantic dinner at seoul garden. with people walking here and there to stuff up their supply of food.. groups of people making noises.. plates clattering.. HAHA. it was hell- crowded. and there were tons of people on the waiting list. so we had to clean and set up the tables as fast as we could.
AND i was working full shift. my soles and feet ache when i reached home and i couldnt sleep well till around 4am?
i so bloody cannot imagine how fugging crowded it will be on chinese new year and the eve.
four whole bloody days. WHHHHY............

anw,
i saw girls carrying sometimes a bouquet of flowers... sometimes just a pretty stalk.
*deep sighs*
i wonder what he's doing there? i bet he's so beat and tired.
cant wait for tomorrow and saturday.. to be in his arms again.. *sighs*

why cant i just skip this day. and work on saturday too.
i just hope that it wont be bloody hell crowded today.
but chinese new year. argh, i dont even want to think about it.
i want to be out of the place by 11.30pm caps!!
i hope the fugging place will be on fire before 5 pm la.


to you,
i hope you can pull this through. i'll be beside you- literally.
i can only say this. everyone has to go through this at one point of their lives. you said so yourself that life's not a bed of roses. so i guess things would not always be a pretty fit all the time. you can run away.. but not forever. i wish sometimes i can tell you what to do, but i cant. its all up to you. you have to be strong and confident. you have to believe in yourself. and you have to be thankful of what you have.. that your problems are not much to what some others have to face, (i dont know who la, but there are some others who have a greater burden to deal with).. and that at the end of the day, you have a great loving family and great loving friends *EHEM* to come home to.
anw, its not as of these things are out of your hand. or out of hand rather.
you can do something about it. you know that yourself. plus, this is not going to be forever.
at the end of these four months or so dear, its not like you've gained nothing.
you'll have money thats for sure.
you'll experience to carry with you.
and plus you will have a stronger and fuller character to prepare for the next challenge to come.
you know they say, if it doesnt break you, it makes you.
you are dealing with people.. people who are just like you. with emotions, weaknesses and flaws. and furthermore, they're not all that bad. they're sometimes crappy, but so are you at some point of the month. HAHA. but anyways.
i hope all this gets into your head. or at least makes you smile and realise something.
think positive and be strong ok?
i'll be beside you if you need me but i too need you to be strong for yourself and for me too.
for now, i have to get through this chinese new year week.
i feel like im going for a war.

to you,
you made me go through one week without your morning greetings, without hearing your voice at night, without your naggings (hehe). the week passes by so fast when im working.. but every night, i'll just wish that im still in school and it will take me just a few steps to go to you (i know usually i'll prefer you to come to my class but that's besides the point). and i know that i can be near you for 12 hours or more everyday..
but im stronger now dear. unlike that dreadful first day you booked in. it was so difficult for me!
i cant wait to see you again. if not tomorrow then saturday.. i have to see you!
i love you sayang..!!!