honestly speaking, ive grown wary of this job-hunting routine.

to wake up every morning, grabbing the classifieds recruit with the hope of a potential job- which is usually zilch by the way. this b word- BILINGUAL, has become a pain in the ass man. also, most want experience and they do not want students awaiting results.
that is why i turned down this guy's offer to work in his office. it was a temp (again) job, so im filling in from wednesday till friday. i turned him down flat, telling him i had plans on thursday.. of course i had lied. i had thought of an excuse impromptu, and thursday was the day between wednesday and friday see. so yeah.

this week looks promising. actually i have plans this friday. with jal and jannah.. finally i get to see jal after eons la.. but the time and place have yet to be confirmed (waves at jal) . also, a relative of mine arrived from indonesia.. he's err, 70 year old? with the enthusiasm and energy of a 30 year old. he'll be staying over from thursday to next monday i think.. it should be fun with his company around this dead house. i forgot to mention, my dad has taken off from work from today till sunday. that, is not fun.

plus plus, i cant wait for 11 jan. i can finally see my girls again. whoopie!!
this is so random but have you heard josh groban's february song? you should. it is very very... sad la. just the right type of song for me now.

i miss hafiz..

its raining cats and dogs here. this heavy rain just puts me to sleep.
yawns.
followed ain to changi airport today for her second interview. haha!! ok she finally made up her mind, thank God. we had our brunch at popeyes.. well it was her first time eating there and my second. we didnt exactly like the mashed potatoes although the bread and cajun fries were great.
k fast forward----
after that around 5pm, i met sayang! ... in his army uniform, headgear, bald head and a miserably huge bag. k to my disappointment, he wasnt exactly a shade darker than he used to be. maybe not yet la.

we had our usual hershey pie at ljs. k pies la. cos i had one and he had one. then we walked around, sat down and talked for a while. really ive got nothing much to say because i was busy staring at him from head to toe. and he showed me his new identity card.. haha.. *swoons* im sorry if this sounds really *rolls eyes* but he really looked damn gorgeous in that picture cos he still had his thick hair and he was wearing the no.1 SAF uniform!!!!! haha.. so there i was, taking pictures of him with every effect i had in my phone, forcing him to pose differently.. (which he didnt of course.. hah)

sighs k, the army boy has already gone to sleep. so yeah.
nights everyone.
till then, have a great weekend.

got a call from recruit express this wee morning asking me to come down in office wear.
and i thought it was something more, permanent? perhaps.
aha. well ok, it was a temp assignment, really temporary lah. considering the fact that i had to filled up this certain kathleen who was on mc for the day.
but i got a good look at the place, had my lunch at the moe cafeteria. stayed at the desk from 11 am to 6pm with totally nothing to do 'cept to handle questions (which i don't even know how to answer.) but still its better than nothing.
because im paid, you see.
and when you're paid 5 bucks per hour just to sit and do nothing, life is good.

i hope aliff's plan for this saturday would turn out well.
a soccer-match date would be pretty fun!
haas. and its been a loooong time since i watch soccer live la.
and,
its 2 days more to book out day!
not me but hafiz lah of course.

i dont want to blog about what happened the past few days. here at home. its just that things just doesnt stop happening. it hasnt end somehow.. and im getting tired of things and i just wish that i wouldnt be so affected. how i wish. i think my sanity is at its brims now.
fug it.

i miss hafiz. sighs.

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

You Are Rocky Road Ice Cream

Unpredictable and wild, you know how to have fun. You're also a trendsetter who takes risks with new things. You know about the latest and greatest - and may have invented it! You are most compatible with vanilla ice cream.

wednesday went pretty fine, alhamdulillah. well, besides the fact that i broke the sandals that hafiz bought for me )=

• went for job interview with ain and azlin. went for two job interviews actually. one at the jtc summit and the other at kelantan lane.
• retail therapy! i got myself nice loafers (had to wear them urgently cos i broke my sandals) and a top from bugis village, which were total bargains, both didnt add up to $50! plus i got myself a kappa handbag from seiyu. i got things striked out from my list. yeay! im quite happy about that. HAHA!
• had soyabean from bugis village!! (hey, after so long okay.)
• finally found out the song's title! i was searching high and low for the title of the song.. fell in love with it the first time i heard it in hafiz's car when we were at the highway. awww.. anyway its Tu Amor by rbd. its the song currently playing now. (=
• called him. he's still having the sore throat from all that shouting.. so its still coarse and raspy and manly. AHAHA! i cant wait to see him bald... no la actually, im rather looking forward to seeing him in his army uniform. hehehe..

watched just my luck on vcd just now but it got kind of irritating so i didnt bother to change to the second disc. now im just waiting to exchange the cds with ain.. i wanna watch a series of unfortunate events!! before we have to return them on monday. i cant wait to see hafiz next friday (did i mention that already?), and since he'll be meeting me around here, so much the better. maybe we'll have dinner and ice cream together.

talking about eating.
do you know whats the relationship between work and eat? well in my case, its reverse. the more i work, the less i eat. the less i work, the more i eat. yes, so i must get myself a job so at least i can move around and not just couch potato-ing myself infront of the tv everyday.

hafiz: so did you exercise?
sya: exercise? yea i exercised my mouth.

i changed my blog's skin for the 4632786th time now. i'm sorry but when you have so much time to spare at home, in front of the computer, there really is nothing much that you can do. anyway, i like this particular skin. heh.

its been 3 days now since he went to camp, they say when you've adopt a practice for four consecutive days, you will have no problems sticking to it for the weeks.. or years to come. so by tomorrow, i hope i will get used to the fact that i can only receive his "good morning sayang.." smses at 5.30am in the morning and that i can only listen to his voice at 9.45pm. and for 45 mins max.. cos they have to sleep at 10.30pm. it seems like, i also have to stick to this military regime.

actually i had a pretty exciting plan for today, i planned to do some shopping with syakila at bugis.. but i'd rather stay at home and pig on a rainy day like this. so i cuddle up in bed with a novel, went down to buy some snacks for myself and eat whatever i can find in the kitchen. my father and sisters went gallivanting at jurong point but i rather not go, or else i'll be tempted to get the papillio from world of sports (which is on sale by the way.) maybe i'll go shopping at bugis tomorrow, myself. i just hate the thought of sitting in the mrt. i mean i dont really mind being alone.. but now i have to pay the adult fare and bugis seems sooo far away, (this particularly when you're alone and paying adult fare.) these are the times i really appreciate being chauffeured around. oklah, not exactly chauffeured. haha. i still remember what happened that night on the 9th.. he was just parking his car at the car park of my flat, and when we were about to get out of the car, celine dion's my heart will go on played on the radio. sighs.. i don't know, but the damn song was a reminder of what will be the last time we'll see each other, before he goes to camp..
and to top it all up, the next song played was kci and jojo's all my life.
what coincidence.
but yeah, we didn’t stay to hear the whole song, couldn’t bear the tense atmosphere.

ok, i think i'll just go back to my novel for now and wait for 9.30 to come.
till next time. have a nice week friends.

yesterday went to meet the girls for birthday celebration.
HAHA.
ok, they kindda had a belated birthday celebration for kast, shan (whose birthday is actually in october!) and me. we went to dine in at pizza hut@ plaza sing.
the girls had a really big coffee cum cheese cake from secret recipe for us! very filling, it was a very huge cake which had our names on it plus it had tons of candles!! aha. the best part was how the staff brought in the cake for us.. they actually dimmed the lights and sang the happy birthday song.. damn grand la.
considering the fact that in that hour itself, we heard two birthday songs sang by two different groups. HAHA.

oh, and of course we received our presents and cards (beautifully made by zash!) it has like a cupcake with a candle on top and those lovely marshmellow look-a-likes are actually pebbles.. stones? im not very sure. but they're really pretty!
i received a pink crown brooch from chomel.
kast had a pretty tee..
and shan received a mini skirt from hula& co.
HAAS!
thank you zash, banu, pok, jayne, kast and shan! too bad dayah couldnt join us yesterday, lets make sure she does the next time round. im looking forward to the next outing, i so miss you girls!

watched harry potter and the goblet of fire this afternoon. it was quite short, it doesnt feel like 2 hrs plus really. i guess when you have a lot of time to spare, 3 hour movies dont bother you.
that means i need to borrow more dvds before i get bored again.
tonight im going to the nearby community centre to collect my bursary. moolahs! but not for spending, it will go to my savings mostly.
and i promised hafiz that im going to call him tonight. hmm. ok maybe for a little while. actually i want to know a million things. and i want to tell him a million things..
like how i miss him a 123612784372186 million times, stuffs like that.
hee.

it didnt rain today, but it still looks rather gloomy.
the rain wont stop these few days, i kind of miss the sunshine already.

if i could fall, into the sky
do you think time
will pass me by
cos you know i'll walk a thousand miles
if i could just
see you
tonight.

will you just look at that.


i think john mayer looks really adorable with his curly locks. you should check out his site and his blog too. this picture is taken from his blog so yeah. he is a pretty interesting (and also not to mention, talented) guy.

well, 11 jan is here. he went off in the morning, leaving me all bored and basically- alone. woke up today in the morning, cooked and watched some tv. then i was on the computer the whole day long. is life gonna be like this from now on? oh well. its one thing or another isnt it? either the tv or the computer. working or schooling.. blablabla. i didnt see him off... two reasons to this:-

firstly, his parents sent him off, and i would want to be some kind of fool hanging around there, peeping from some corner.
secondly, considering the crybaby i am.. i would probably be put to tears seeing him leave. yes i surely will.

he perked me up a little bit. send me an sms this afternoon, hearing the vibration of my phone and opening my inbox - 'darling yang', just lighten me up..
"yang i dah botak"
my baby's bald!!
hurhur.
but never mind. i dont mind hafiz bald whatever. his hair is tooo thick anyway.

so how was the first day without him?
its like pathetic fallacy you know. just look at the endless downpour outside your window, the grey skies and the puddles of water on the cement floor and road.
its just how i feel.
gloomy, grey.. whatever.
i just have the urge to run into the rain and get myself completely wet.

sighs. i miss hafiz already.

its 3 more days before hafiz is going to tekong.
3 more.. short yet going-to-be-wasted days.
its not as if i can go out to meet him. i dont think so.
i hope my life dont stop to a halt when he's not around.. after all, im so used to him being there.. or rather everywhere for the past 1 yr 4 months.
yep. as of today. happy monthsary yang. *huggs*
now dont get me wrong, its not as if im burrowing myself in self-pity now that he's going.
i just feel that im going to miss these times.. (actually i already miss the times we were in school together.. nvm..)
but i do hope he will return as a grown, more mature and less temperamental young lad. oh he does have a temper, alright.
i cant wait to see him bald although i'll hate it.
maybe he'l be darker, tts undeniable isnt it?
will we get the chance to talk on the phone during late-nights?
i cant wait to see him in his army uniform either. *swoons*
really, what is to happen next?

im meeting him later!
waiting for his knock on my door.
but ok, we still dont know where to go.
registered for the seminar, but heard frm shan earlier that the seminars are held every two weeks.
haiyah. then dont feel like going today already. =D
i'd rather be out doing sth else.
maybe shopping?
hurhur.

yawns.

SOMEDAY WE'LL KNOW (Mandy Moore)

Ninety miles outside Chicago
I can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later, you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Cuz true love is just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
What the wind says when she comes
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninty-seventh time, tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you
I want to take you to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you .

i managed to switch to the new blogger! frankly speaking, i dont know whats the use of switching. it looks the same to me.

ITS THE 2ND!!!! WEEE!!
today is the 2nd of january. (= the past two days were torture. i almost died of exhaustion.. you know its like running 2.4 km (klah some of you may find this no problem but it is a big burden for me), but the tiredness goes on and on for 8 hours. the crowd never stop coming in.. and during the new year's eve, crowd came in after 12. crazy.
and yes i celebrated new year WORKING. but it was an enjoyable sight seeing all those people roar and celebrate when the clock strikes 12.. with party hats and all. the tango and wala wala crowd was hilarious.

and so i have to collect my pay tmr.
i have yet to pay the girls for chalet and everything.
and i miss you ain!! its been a long time since we met.
haiyah lets go for dinner sometime.

im waiting for hafiz.
he's not back yet.