since i am in no particular mood to blog in proper sentences...

significant things/events that happened this week-

• had mudpie + ice blended pure chocolate at coffeebean with fiz. yumm!
• sha's sister wedding. met my girls! with the exception of dayah, shan and jayne. =(
• quitted my job.
• sent fiz to the ferry terminal yesterday and bawled my eyes out. i knew i shouldnt sent him.. it was just so heartbreaking to see him go.
• this weekend is a no-hafiz weekend cos he has a test of some sort so he cant bring in his hp and whatever. big SIGHS.
• got a job at gg5. and mon is gonna be my first day. big sigh again. i hope this is so gonna work out because i do not want to job hop again!

i miss-

• having lunches/dinners together with fiz, dayah and fariz.
• school. i miss school!! i miss break times, i miss the corridor in front of the class, i miss sleeping in class, i miss makcik corner, the slow aunty at frutti tutti, the grumpy aunty at the oasis, wild wild west!
• mrt/bus rides with hafiz.
• having a happy family.
• 2nd student council and the activities we went through together.
• doing homework. -i know. this is terrible.

i miss hafiz. very much.

happy birthday sayang!!

yeah you're finally 21!!
which means from now on you need to have $500 in your posb account every month or else $2 will be deducted every end of the month. hahas.
the perks of being 21.

so erm now cannot address you as birthday boy right? haha..


i cant wait to see you tomorrow dearest..!
*muahmuahmuah*

so many things happened these past few days..
job-hopped. again. mwa-ha.
had fever too.

had swensens ice-cream for two days in a row, one occassion with hafiz and the other with ain. sayang and i had the regular earthquake and he insisted on having mint. (i, on the other hand, totally hate mint ice cream) and then the next day when ain and i had the topless five, she ALSO wanted to have mint.
okae, by then i was freaked out. i mean really, i noticed these similarities between them way way before this. it gave me chills! so ain told me that opposites attract bla bla.. but i think that only applies to magnets.. right. so anyway, it was pretty interesting.. since they both have the same horoscope sign, same interest in playing drums, the mint ice-cream, what they eat at pizza hut. hmm.

moving on, these past few days, i spent more time out with ain or hafiz than at home. yesterday something interesting happened.. ain and i were heading to city hall from bugis. outside old chang kee at bugis, we saw a visually-handicapped man who seemed to be lost. and interestingly, despite the dense human traffic, no one was helping him.. so we did what any other people would do... we went to help. my intention was just to lead him down to the escalator and guide him to wherever he wanted to head to. so ain and i approached him.. and he suddenly grabbed ain by the hand.. you know usually a visually-handicapped man would hold your upper arm as you guide him through BUT this particular man grabbed ain by the hand, like how you would hold your girlfriend's hand that kind of thing.
the best part is, he demanded that we gave him money to buy two sticks of fishball from old chang kee. i got very very uneasy looking at the way he grabbed ain's hand like that. i gave ain $2 asking her to get him whatever he wanted and i immediately went down the escalator. (i was not feeling well you see, my head was spinning..) so when i reached the bottom of the escalator, i saw the man (still holding on to ain) and they were talking... and then suddenly he left her.
ain told me that he actually asked her to get him an ezlink card to get to orchard mrt!!! *gasp!* so she told him to ask the control station manager then he hesitated and walked away from her. she also told me later that the lady at old chang kee actually knew that man.
i was very very mad to think that he had the cheek to take advantage of people who actually wanted to help him sincerely. especially when he held ain like that!! his hand deserved to be chopped off. seriously. i guess that was the reason why no one wanted to help him. plus, what is he going to do at orchard at 8pm at night??

that aside, i finally gave hafiz his advance-birthday present and the beautiful polar cake. very very beautiful heart-shaped, sponge-cream chocolate cake (which he manages to gobble all!!) and i think he looks good in the white adidas polo.. plus he even claimed that he feels like a tennis player. haha!! actually i have a shot of him in it but i think its safer not to put it here because both of my sisters claimed that he looks gay-ish. hahhha!! i think its probably because of the way he smiled to the camera la. he has his shooting test today so i hope it goes all smooth for him. he has yet to sms me tonight..

anyway, when is the alevel results gonna be released? if there's any news dont hesitate to tell me alright. i dont actually watch the news or read the papers these days..
alright, im so looking forward to this weekend! accompanying hafiz to changi general hosp for his ear appointment and then on saturday, off to sha's sis wedding dinner.. which means a chance to meet my girls!!!

till the next time, have a great week/weekend friends.

valentine's day wasnt exactly all rosy for me. really.
i didnt know couples would even have the thought of having a romantic dinner at seoul garden. with people walking here and there to stuff up their supply of food.. groups of people making noises.. plates clattering.. HAHA. it was hell- crowded. and there were tons of people on the waiting list. so we had to clean and set up the tables as fast as we could.
AND i was working full shift. my soles and feet ache when i reached home and i couldnt sleep well till around 4am?
i so bloody cannot imagine how fugging crowded it will be on chinese new year and the eve.
four whole bloody days. WHHHHY............

anw,
i saw girls carrying sometimes a bouquet of flowers... sometimes just a pretty stalk.
*deep sighs*
i wonder what he's doing there? i bet he's so beat and tired.
cant wait for tomorrow and saturday.. to be in his arms again.. *sighs*

why cant i just skip this day. and work on saturday too.
i just hope that it wont be bloody hell crowded today.
but chinese new year. argh, i dont even want to think about it.
i want to be out of the place by 11.30pm caps!!
i hope the fugging place will be on fire before 5 pm la.


to you,
i hope you can pull this through. i'll be beside you- literally.
i can only say this. everyone has to go through this at one point of their lives. you said so yourself that life's not a bed of roses. so i guess things would not always be a pretty fit all the time. you can run away.. but not forever. i wish sometimes i can tell you what to do, but i cant. its all up to you. you have to be strong and confident. you have to believe in yourself. and you have to be thankful of what you have.. that your problems are not much to what some others have to face, (i dont know who la, but there are some others who have a greater burden to deal with).. and that at the end of the day, you have a great loving family and great loving friends *EHEM* to come home to.
anw, its not as of these things are out of your hand. or out of hand rather.
you can do something about it. you know that yourself. plus, this is not going to be forever.
at the end of these four months or so dear, its not like you've gained nothing.
you'll have money thats for sure.
you'll experience to carry with you.
and plus you will have a stronger and fuller character to prepare for the next challenge to come.
you know they say, if it doesnt break you, it makes you.
you are dealing with people.. people who are just like you. with emotions, weaknesses and flaws. and furthermore, they're not all that bad. they're sometimes crappy, but so are you at some point of the month. HAHA. but anyways.
i hope all this gets into your head. or at least makes you smile and realise something.
think positive and be strong ok?
i'll be beside you if you need me but i too need you to be strong for yourself and for me too.
for now, i have to get through this chinese new year week.
i feel like im going for a war.

to you,
you made me go through one week without your morning greetings, without hearing your voice at night, without your naggings (hehe). the week passes by so fast when im working.. but every night, i'll just wish that im still in school and it will take me just a few steps to go to you (i know usually i'll prefer you to come to my class but that's besides the point). and i know that i can be near you for 12 hours or more everyday..
but im stronger now dear. unlike that dreadful first day you booked in. it was so difficult for me!
i cant wait to see you again. if not tomorrow then saturday.. i have to see you!
i love you sayang..!!!

i don't know why finding the suitable job is such a tough task for me. i can never be happy with the pay/hours/people/manager(s)/practices/location/job scope. whatever lah.
truth is, i hate being tired from work.
schooling tired is so much different from working tired.

valentine's day is tomorrow.
im working full shift. from 12 to 10.
fug it.
i guess i'll just skip the nec interview.
and the gg5 one.
actually i dont mind working tomorrow.
but full shift just makes me go bonkers... especially tomorrow. the place will be packed for sure. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaais. luckily my dearie-bestie will be just working next door- literally.
i just want to plan my fugging schedule la.

anw, i heard alevel results cmg out next week.
hmmmm....
I SO MISS HAFIZ LAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

in a dilemma.
why do plans always have to crash each other?
tomorrow. and maybe next week.

my bum hurts.
urgh.
from all that climbing.
not worth the effort.
unprofessional.
underpaid.

so how ah?

10 things on my mind right now:-

1. when is he gonna sms me? has his field training ended for the day? like when the hellll is it gonna end. he hasnt sms me since the start of the day. sighhs.
2. job. job. job. JOB!!
3. my feet. interesting fact- my left foot is an inch bigger than the right.
4. what to cook for breakfast and lunch/dinner tomorrow. uurggghh.
5. plans for tmr to KILL boredom.
6. please let it come. this week.
7. when is the alevel results released? just had that hoorrible dream yesterday night. Fs? Os? damn.
8. please let any school call for relief teaching. just fill up my time!!
9. what to buy? where's the perfect place? us alone or with them?
10. please let me get through.

my plans for these two days went well.. although my dates were not exactly that looong, (considering the father being at home) i enjoyed the company, and the food lah. of course.
yesterday, had the pre-planned date with jal and jannah... ate at sakura then had ice-cream at swensens. aha. we had the topless five and we had all... chocolate? or near-chocolate flavours? HAHA. talked about primary and secondary school days.. (jannah knows our secondary school friends although she's not in the same school, AND she even memorises their names everything.) *gasp in awe*
went home with jannah... jal, unfortunately lives in woodlands. she told me about her boyfriend being in national service.. and what she has gone through and what she's going through.. *gulps* really, i just hope i'll have that amount of patience and whatever it takes to withstand.

i met hafiz today! but i didnt exactly fetched him from camp.. he went home and took a nap before meeting me. his card reader wasnt working so he decided not to bring me to town. )= but.. we ate at east coast park instead! we had.. honey chicken wings, cockles (really filling), coconut and of course our, or rather his all-time favourite, satay.

i noticed something. (refer to picture) he does look abit darker isnt it? i think its due to the fact that he's been having his field training these past few days.
and not too mention, he'll be having his field training for the whole of next week so he wont be bringing his phone.. the only source of communication between us. so from tmr till maybe eve of chinese new year or so, we will not be meeting each other AND not talking to each other either. so yea. *sighs*
its gonna be one hell of a week. or rather a week and the half. aarrrgggh.
my only consolation? - the birthday party with the girls.
its really gonna be one hell of a week.
sigggghs.




ayang, call tau.
jangan tak call.