"together we will move the clouds to brighter days."


lately, i realised that the boy has a lot of dreams.
he sometimes drives me crazy with his talks of the plans and the future.
to think of it,
he drives me crazy all the time.

finally had a date with ain and aliff, my two sisters. (=
we had a good laugh over dinner.
and,
i also met miss low in the store.
i miss my school life.
i miss hafiz bringing two sandwiches to the classroom every morning. HAHA.

ain,
i havent been cleaning my room too,
(havent throw my notes. yet.)
or even paying attention to what i eat.
i just know,
i've been eating alot.
all my lau pa sat suppers, snacking at work, and irregular meals.
i miss you la.

i hope i'll get the call.
tomorrow or tuesday, it doesnt matter.
and please someone remind me that i need to transfer cash.
sighs.

i wonder if these are just the phases in a relationship.
sometimes i think i have already shattered and fallen into pieces.
but somehow ive managed to pull myself up, everytime.
its a routine.
i have felt the need to give up sometimes.
but really i never did.
it is difficult to leave something that you had believed in and held on to for the longest time.

maybe you wouldnt understand,
because this is something too normal for you.
a long-term relationship-
you've always wanted better. i know.
and she was the benchmark.
she was the someone whom i'm always being compared to,
whether you'll admit it or not.
i know.


"I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you"

i cant even open my eyes right now.
flu. bloody flu giving me a hard time.

im sorry i havent been updating lately.
been busy with work.
i work 9 hours a day, and almost 6 days a week. and the one off day i have is for hafiz.
the father has been bugging me about work and school.
i don't know.
i seriously don't know whether i should continue schooling or just get a full time job.
and start saving money.
to replenish the savings that i had happily spent in the span of a month or so.
to save for the future.
future.
you get what i mean.

NURUL AIN BINTE MOHD YASIN,
you'd better contact our other lesbian partner, mohd aliff..
so that the 3 of us can catch up on each other.
yesterday i was thinking of the times we had together in geog class.
yak and yak and yak..
i miss talking to aliff.
because most of the time ain was trying so hard to undertand what hooray was teaching..
but the two of us just couldnt be bothered..
naughty kids.

sighs.