its a very gloomy saturday.
too gloomy that i wished i was working this weekend instead of being stuck at home.
this morning left us with a crooked fan and two crying girls. some people just cannot control their outrageous temper. even over drenched laundry.
personally i think that most of those who dont control their temper just dont wish to. they are selfish humans who wants other people to response and act accordingly to satisfy their own interests.
i mean seriously, its okay to be angry once in a while when things dont go your way, but certainly not to the extent of damaging the house fan and lifting the sofa, for God's sakes. you are totally unreasonable when it comes to handling problems in the family.
what will it take for you to overcome your temper? when you start to see your loved ones dying at your feet?

you know sometimes after all the shit you went through the whole day, you just want somebody who can hug you and say nice things to you at the end of the day. most of us girls just need a few comforting words to make it all better. i dont know why its so hard to get simple encouragement from you sometimes.
is this what every couple go through?

i dont blame your NS. because i understand its tough for you.. or any other guys for that matter.
but you have made it clear to me so many times that you dont want to meet me because you dont want to send me all the way home.
you dont want to meet me all the time because our dates costs a lot.
now im breathing down your neck.
you need to enjoy when you're still young.
you prefer to go gallivanting and swimming than meet me.
and then when you really need me, you tell me you're meeting me.
you cant take no for an answer. i have to put in every drop of effort to meet you.
so what if on that particular day, i prefer to go gallivanting instead?
must i be at your beck and call?
i dont think any gf deserve all that spiteful names.
i know sometimes i tend to demand, but have i not reciprocate enough? you are always telling me that im only taking and not giving. what have i not given enough to you?
i can spare you 6 days out of my 7 days in a week. you spare me 1.
and you're telling me that i should be grateful.

why have the things you've been doing for more than 2 years have now become chores?
what have i become? another burden in your life?

do you really love me like how you tell me every morning, every day?
do you?