its been hard, truthfully. being exempted for half semester doesnt do me any good.. besides paying lesser for the course fees. my foundation subjects - math, accounting and economics. ive no problems with refreshing my mind with economics, but accounting and math.. ESPECIALLY MATH. i have no math background. the last time ive formally touched math was emath back in secondary school.. and now im doing differentiation, integration, statistics, probability.. and and and.. ive to sit for exams in 2 months time.
and it doesnt help that i have yet to purchase the textbooks (which practically cost a bomb).. the lecturers basically take their tutorial questions from these textbooks so there is no way im gonna scrap through foundation year without having my hands on them. seriously, i dont think they are worth my 100 bucks plus cos i'll only be using them for 2 months!
maybe i forgot how stressful it was having to worry for exams and how tiring it was to pay attention in class. now that ive to sit for 3 hours lectures, do tutorials and worry about exams.. i find it.. (gasps!) even more depressing than working...
ok maybe thats a bit too far-fetched, but you get the idea..
to top it all, my finances are super tight.
ive never ever in my whole life wished that my parents were richer.
but now i wish they are!
so that i dont have to take a bank loan for my course fees (speaking of which, my bank loan is yet to be settled, i have yet to pay my first instalment to the school!!), so that i have no qualms about buying the textbooks.. even if im just going to be using them for 2 months only, so that i dont have to get a part-time job to support my personal expenses and this would mean i can just concentrate on school.
and im so pissed with myself for spending money on lunch.. cos i think im wasting money.. i seriously need help.
make me happy please.
what i so need now is just to crawl into hafiz's arms and for him to give me a good nag on how things would be alright.i miss having lau pa sat with him! its funny to think of the times when i was working at gg<5.. when we used to have late dinners at lau pa sat or lps(hafiz's own acronym) almost 3 times a week.. now we rarely meet that much..
i miss watching movies with him.. passing popcorns and watching him sleep halfway through the movie..
Sigh.
