after watching so you think you can dance on tv, something striked me when i was having my late night shower. but its a thought so ridiculous i dont wish to even voice it out.

today i spend 5/8 of the day sleeping, 1/8 of it going for tuition in the morning, and another 2/8 of it watching television and speaking on the phone. seriously i wish i was out. its youth day! and its the 7th! i dont want to be rubbing it in, but yeah it is the 7th of the month. its always the day that i look forward to every month.. and this month the date seems nice isnt it, the 7th of 7. but then again, to think of it... i think i was better off studying than waiting for something incredible to happen. NEVER MIND.

well it looks like im spending next saturday alone again, any takers? anyone? ain, are you working? you can be my date for the saturdays to come.. i dont mind..

you know i think day by day im beginning to think and sound more like __________ *gasp!*. i dont want to even try to be happy or optimistic anymore. its becoming more and more tiring each day. sometimes you feel very pek chek.. but you dont know who or what you're frustrated with. i wish i dont even give a damn. he said im ignorant. HAH. HOW I WISH I WAS REALLY THAT IGNORANT. now i feel like snapping at everyone im having a conversation with. but what am i unhappy about, seriously??

sighs.

Kasihku
Hanya kau sahaja di hatiku
Hanya kau satu yang ku rindu
Setiap waktu tak pernah rasa jemu

Saat kau tiba
Terasa sungguh bahagia
Jalinan indah mesra bersamamu
Sehingga cinta yang pertama

Dengarkanlah bicara cintaku
Aku ingin selalu di sisimu
Dengarkanlah bicara rinduku
Pinta hati ini yang ingin bersamamu selamanya

Senyum tawamu
Terbawa selalu dalam mimpi
Hingga tak mampu untuk kulupakan
Kau sering di dalam ingatan

glenn fredly ft amy mastura - dengarkanlah

but still, happy monthsary to you.
i love you.