sometimes i dont understand myself.
i tend to do things on impulse.
im a worry wart too. i worry excessively sometimes till my head hurts.
and i dont know how i think, and why i think of such things.
i guess its true that when you are around a particular person for a certain period of time, you will mirror each others' views, actions, etc. i notice that subconciously, im starting to think and act like hafiz.. then i will go.. "why did i do that?" or "what was i thinking?" i dont know if its a bad or a good thing, but it certainly scares me.

i had my first lesson of the semester. again, very scary. especially the people.. but if there's anything for me to complain about.. it must be the freaking tutorial grouping. i end at 4 everyday! except for some fridays/thursdays and mondays. actually tts not so bad. but i have a 3.5 hour break everyday!! what the flying fish should i do? especially during the fasting month. i had this terrific idea of shifting my tuition in between my lectures and tutorials, only during the kids one week break of course.. and to shift some of my tuition lessons to sundays. this has been the cause of my headache for the past few days. today, i postponed my tuition with roop to sunday cos i was feeling the post-first-day-of-school syndrome.

last week, i was excited to be busy again. and now, i wish i wasnt this busy. i told you sometimes i cannot understand myself.