because no other words can accurately reflect what im feeling right now. and because i myself cannot comprehend my own thoughts:-
i love you, fiz. and im sorry.
Would you please meet me by the water, baby
We'll have a really good time
Would you please meet me by the water, baby
'Cause I can't get you off of my mind
I've been thinking everyday about you
Don't fit anywhere into my life, but that's okay
'Cause I think I might be right for you
And because of that, I'm not scared at all
And everyone says I'm crazy
And everyone says I'm a fool
Would you meet me by the water tonight
'Cause I'm ready to break all the rules
Please don't leave me standing
With my heart in my hand
I can't last here
I'm breaking down,
And no one understand why I got here
But I knew from the very first moment
That I met you
You'd be the one
Would you meet me by the water tonight
Would you please fall asleep
Holding my hand
'Cause I've got everything in store for you, baby
If you'll be my man
Rachel Yamagata - Meet Me By The Water

i dont even know if its a male, but you're looking at michelangelo, our new pet as of yesterday. this fella is so small, its like the size of your handphone screen. its actually a birthday gift to syarina, who turns 7 tomorrow.. but i was the one who named it. hahahah. (
somebody suggested that we buy another 3 terrapins and a rat! haha!!) actually syarina wanted a hamster for a pet, but my father was totally against the idea. cos he was terrified that the hamster will start chewing on the wires (i think it was a freaking lame excuse). so then my mother suggested that we keep a fish, or mealworms. mealworms!

so in the middle of my "chasing-deadline" schedule, we went down to choose the terrapin for her. my sister and i even managed to pull off a impromptu birthday "party", which basically consists of a few presents, 2 viva pizzas, a birthday cake, and fries. and then after that it was back to work.
but im done now. finished. habis. but i feel that my paper wasnt as coherent as i wish it could be. when i was typing at 2am yesterday, i didnt even know what i was typing. so that was why i postponed 2 of my tuition classes today to tomorrow. so i could spend more time on the essay.. and it was a right decision. BUT like i mentioned, work never subsides.
ebus exam is next friday.
just when u thought u can give ure brain its well deserved rest, another assignment comes to haunt you. and its worst when you procrastinate. essays are the most terrible form of assignments (in my case that is), especially the type of essays which needs tons of citations and research.
there's a million things that i want to buy but ive to refrain cos my pay is coming in bite-sized pieces, and not to mention barely enough. why must there be a recession, oh God? everyone's been telling me the same thing. to not spend because of the recession, save your money. if they had learnt economics then they would know that it is in times of recession that you need to spend more. because... ok ive forgotten the equation, but im positive consumer expenditure is one of the factors that can pull up the economy.
ive been repeating the dream in my mp3/wmp. which is bad cos im beginning to get sick of it already.
ok time to work.